I miss her. I miss her scent. I miss her infectious smile. I miss how she'd kick her feet in excitement when I'd get her out of her crib. I miss her beautiful blue eyes. I miss her laugh, especially mixed with her sister's laugh. I miss how complete she made our family feel. I miss seeing the love in her eyes when she would look at her sister, her daddy, me. I miss how happy I was being her mom. I miss wondering what kind of person she would be. I miss envisioning her future. I miss wondering if her hair would really be red and curly like mine. I miss being a family of four. I miss seeing her carseat next to Piper's. I miss hearing her giggle when Piper would play peek-a-boo with her in the car. I miss the quiet time with her right before bed, and first thing in the morning. I miss changing her clothes/bibs 6 times a day because of the incessant drool. I miss how she would grab a hold of my face for kisses.
I just miss her.
Kelli, i never knew Maggie but girl i can tell you i cry everytime i think of her and what your family must be going through and the tough times ahead you will all share.
ReplyDeleteYou are such a strong lady to be able to do your day to day life with your husband and of course Piper.
Im not sure of your beleifs or followings but i hope you know that Maggie is looking after you all and with you every second of every day and tho you can't phsically hold her or smell her teeny tiny feet, mentally i just know she is right there with you.
Kelli, i weep with you for your loss, i smile with you for your memories of sweet Maggie and i feel your love and deep loss for her in everything you write.
i wish i could say something that would help but all i can do is offer my love, my support and a friend anytime you need one.
xx
Kelly,
ReplyDeleteI can not even begin to fathom how you feel and how hard it must be to just get out of bed in the morning. You, Maggie, Ryan and Piper are always on my mind and I pray and hope that you all can someday find some peace with what happened. You sweet girl will be missed by all, and will always be remembered.
No parent should ever have to loose a child, and I just wish there was something I could do to help ease your pain. Please know I am here if you need ANYTHING.
Krista
Kelli, I don't know how you put one foot infront of the other...actually, I know Piper has alot to do with it...my heart just sobs when I read your comments...I know how terribly you wanted that little girl and God gave you your little surprise when you least expected...after all of those POAS...I don't understand it...I just don't understand how God could take your little girl so soon...and like everyone else, I wish there was something I could do to ease your pain...just a little...you sweet girl. I pray for you often...you've made a dent in so many people's lives...I hope you know that...
ReplyDeleteSusan
This made my heart physically ache. Your words are beautifully written.
ReplyDeleteYou know how much I love you, Maggie and your whole family.
Keep writing.
oxox